I came across this personal journal entry I had written in 2011. I would like to share it and encourage someone out there who is feeling the same way I had felt when I was writing this. I hope and pray it will bless you today.
I must believe that Jesus loves me – not just because I grew up being told that He loves me, but because I know for myself He loves me.
He loves me even when I’m in the wrong.
He loves me even when I’m insisting I’m right.
He still loves me even when I am sinning.
He said there is nothing that I can do that He will not forgive me for.
Even when I’m faithless He loves me.
But I need to believe with all of my heart and soul that He loves me.
It wouldn’t be fair to accuse God of weakening in His love for me when I have loved Him and trusted Him all these years. I’ve looked to Him for help all these years and He has been gracious to me. Would He turn away from me when I’m messing up when I need Him the most?
I must believe that He still loves me even when things are going wrong. Even when things aren’t going the way I want it, He still loves me.
I must believe when things are going wrong He hasn’t forsaken me. He still loves me.
I must believe!
The Lord Jesus is telling me I must believe, and I should have every confidence to ask Him for help because He loves me. If the thing I am asking for is not good in His sight He will let me know. He will deal with me in my heart. So I must ask anyway and trust Him to do what is best for me.
He loves you.
Believe He loves you.
You love Him, don’t you? You want to be in His favor? You want to have Him love you? Why shouldn’t He when you desire for Him to do these things for you?
If someone you know loves you and desires for you to love them back, and tries to love you and do what is right and good in your eyes, would you turn them away when they mess up? Would you say you don’t want them anymore? That wouldn’t be right, would it? To you it’s not even right, how much more to the Lord who is good to the unthankful? He healed ten lepers and only one returned to thank him. Did he undo the healing for the other nine? Of course not. He was still good to them. He still loved them. He was saddened by their ungratefulness, but He still loved them and gave them their healing.
If he still loved the nine unthankful lepers, He will not turn away from you when you’ve messed up and are looking to Him for help and comfort. How much more will He be gracious to you who loves Him, who is mindful of Him, and who desires good things in this life, so that you may do what is right with Him? How much more will He love you because you love Him, and are desirous to please Him?
Believe He loves you…
…for he is kind unto the unthankful and to the evil. {Luke 6:35}
But God commendeth his love toward us, in that, while we were yet sinners, Christ died for us. {Romans 5:8}
The LORD hath appeared of old unto me, saying, Yea, I have loved thee with an everlasting love: therefore with lovingkindness have I drawn thee. {Jeremiah 31:3}
For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life. {John 3:16}
Prayer
Lord Jesus, great is Your love for me. I can never thank You enough for it. Thank You so much with all of my heart for giving Your life for me and dying at the cross for my sins. I thank You so much for Your love and grace upon my soul today.
Father, I know that when I mess up Your love is still true and faithful, it has not diminished. It’s like a father to his son or daughter, Your love remains steadfast. Help me then Father to never, ever stop talking to You, even when I’m feeling so bad and guilty about myself. Help me then to never, ever stop loving You, even when I feel unloveable. Help me then to never, ever stop coming to You, because with You all things are possible and with You I will find my holiness and perfection. I thank You Father for hearing my prayer today and for always loving me. I pray this in Your most lovely and gracious name, Jesus. Thank You, Father. Amen.
